Boy problems

To start off my love life on Playstation Network, I have to start from the beginning. I was still new to Home, and I was not looking for any relationship. I was afraid that I could get in trouble by my parents, or even get hurt so I kept my distance from those sorts of problems. About a couple months into playing Home I was able to buy clothes and make friends. One of my 1st friends was named Ron, he was a really nice guy and he was 17 or 18. I was about 13 (almost 13 possibly) and I didn't really understand him much. We talked a lot and always kept in contact when I was online, it was a daily thing. This went on for about a month or 2. Suddenly, my own MOM wanted to try out Playstation Home and she told me I couldn't use it anymore because it was inappropriate for my age. I tried to tell her I ignored the weird people and would usually run away, but she still took it away. I had no contact with Ron from then on. I did get upset because he was becoming a very good friend to me, and I didn't want him to think I died or something! During the time period I wasn't allowed on PSN at all, then a while later I was able to get back into the game! I got online and messaged Ron as quick as I could, and he was sure happy to see me back. I was so glad he didn't delete me off his list! Finally being back on PSN made me so happy, I even started sneaking on Home! I sneaked on when no one was around, and hung out with Ron. However, Ron began developing feelings for me. I felt really awkward because he was really old, and I was young so I stayed away from him a little more often. I made myself clear that I was not interested, and I could get into a lot of trouble. I probably ended up hurting Ron's heart, and of course I still think about it (he was really nice). As months go by, I meet my friend German Brot, now he had a German name and it is hard to remember it. We hung out every single day, and sometimes Ron would tag along. German Brot was in his 20's and he was really chill, and so was I so we got along great! One day, Brot took invited me to go with him to some party at his friends house. Of course I joined him, and we were on our way to the Ghostbusters Apartment space. We arrived there and I met all of Brot's friends, I was super excited (at this time period I was still sneaking on Home). Apparently I was one of the young ones at the party (of course) but some other boy was the same age as me. We started talking a lot during the party, and the other people were making fun of us! They kept calling us adorable, and that we should go out! I just met this kid, why would I date him already! I was thinking in the back of my mind.. I could get into a lot of trouble by my mom if she ever found out. I sent the boy a friend request, and we have been friends ever since. I started focusing on this boy more than Ron, and we became interested in each other. I was starting to understand boys more, and I really liked this boy (zim). We were always together, and we always had fun! Then one day, he sent me a message and asked me if I wanted to date him. Of course I responded with yes! Our relationship lasted for 6 - 7 months. I was able to use Playstation Home in the middle of our relationship. I fell in love with Zim, and we had a really good relationship but not everything lasts forever. I started to become lonely, and realize we won't ever meet. I live in New Jersey, he is in Georgia. How is this going to work out? I asked myself. Our relationship slowly started to fall apart. I liked other people, and I made a couple mistakes. So we ended our relationship when I was having problems of my own. The problems I was having was.. I was falling in love with someone else. I was 13, and almost going to be 14. He was 17, and he was super adorable. His name is Ryan, and he lives in Delaware. Delaware isn't that far away from me, so knowing I wouldn't be lonely and that some day we could meet brought up my confidence (just to bring some light into this, I was talking to Ryan while dating "Zim"). I knew I was falling in love with him, we had so many things in common. The first time I heard his voice it was like angels singing in heaven, telling my heart to let Ryan know I love him. So I built up the confidence and I let it all out! Ends up, Ryan loved me too. Ever since that day we've been going strong. So far it has been almost 2 years since we've been going out, and we recently met in person. I am now 15, and Ryan is now 19 (don't worry I have parents consent). He's the best things that has ever happened to me, and even though boys may be difficult they sure can bring some light into your life.